Tuesday, July 29, 2008 @20:57
i never thought that this would be so hard.
i mean, i thought that i could just live my life
the way i wanted to. with no one having a say in it.
but then, that could only apply. never.
before i begin. reading is a liability.
so, you can just forget it if you want to.
after all, its not that you must read this.
but if you do. then, maybe you could help me
answer why i am.
im sorry that i have to dissapoint you my friend.
i know that there is still a chance.
but that chance doesnt rest on my hands.
it rests on the very hands of the people whom i dont even know.
its almost as if fate takes control. but human error doesnt coincide with fate.
it just negates it, defies it, never to work with it.
maybe i shouldnt have pinned your hopes up too high.
but, i guess, i just wanted to be the brother that you wish you could have.
or so i thought. maybe i just know nothing. and i cant help at all.
and school. im really interested in you baby.
its a different thing altogether.
i finnaly got my wish, no exams, just projects. which are fun.
but at what price. i wish i could help all my friends.
but theres so much i can do.
some even think of giving up. please dont. hahaha.
i know i shouldnt be laughing, but i need to tell myself.
that there will be no one around me who's dissapointed.
but hey, thats not for me to say.
each heart guides an individual in many different ways.
some pursue interest to its brink. while others pursue it just to play its part.
some will fight through to the end of the day. while others prefes safety then to have casualties along the way.
dont get me wrong, im not stressed. im coping quite well.
its the others im worried about. sincere.
so baby. nothing is certain.
please. im here. im waiting. im true.
